The Bike Shop

Sometimes the thrill of seeing a five year old boy ride his bike is totally worth it.
Some days I'm just not up for it.
To me, a bike shop is one of the happiest places on earth,
so full of potential.
Some lost souls know how to corrupt anything though,
and that's why I'll say I can prove you wrong.
I see much more to life than what's shown on the surface.
So I take solace in knowing, that I do help, in my own way...
He told me so, through a stranger I knew for all of five minutes.
I am proud of myself.
I may be a "wrench", but I'm not a "tool"
and I will not let this dream die,
like so many would hope.
I keep my wheels turning, and find my Zen
In the bike shop.
Whether prying eyes like it or not,
I'll help people in my own way,
and take the heat for it later.
You can't corrupt me.


I woke up today, and felt really heavy with the burden of having to go to work for the same man again. However today I will not feel victimized, because you're only a victim until you take charge. I tried that once, but it didn't work out so well. So for now, I'm gonna keep pressing, and keep helping people in the best way I know how. I'll keep selling bicycles, and I'll keep people coming back, but for some reason, I'll also keep getting problems for the way I work.

Like I mentioned in that short poem above (which by the way just kinda poured out really quickly) I met a woman about a year ago. I was having a horrid day, and she looked at me and said, "Hey son, What's your name?"

I quickly turned around and said "Sean, How are you?"

May I digress for one second, as to inform you that this encounter took place in the post office. I had a package to send to Denmark, and this little old lady had about ten packages going to Africa, China, France and so on...

The nice old lady did not tell me her name, she just closed her eyes and pointed her nose at the ceiling, took a deep breath and said in a drawn out manner, "Sean, God is very proud of you. He see's what you do every day, and he smiles at your heart. It is not your circumstances that define you, it's how you deal with them."

That moment was one of the single best of my life. Almost a sense of validation that I needed in a weak time. When I feel weak, I remember that lady, and what she said to me. I wonder if she knows she's an Angel? She impacted my life greatly that day, and I am thankful for her.

So, for now, I'll go to my post, paste on a smile, and keep myself happy with thoughts of my new friends. I am ever so greatful for them, they keep my life fresh, and bright. I wish I could spend more time with them, I really do. But for now, I'm off to the bike shop... to find my Zen.

I also have to get this out really fast, because now I'm gonna be late... I really miss the presence of K in my life right now. She helped me so much, and then, BOOM, in a flash, I had to stop contact, for now. It sucks though, when someone you love and respect as a person, can not be contacted. I miss you K, if you read this just know that I can't wait to talk and hang again. I've known a couple of my best friends the shortest time of all my friends. I wouldn't have it any other way.